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Wednesday, January 26, 2011

NEW STUDY ON TRANSGENDERISM

There's a wonderful new study on the brains of trans people. Here is a link to the full article:
Google Docs Trans

Outline:

White matter microstructure in female to male transsexuals before cross-sex hormonal treatment. A diffusion tensor imaging study.

Clinical Institute of Neuroscience, Hospital Clinic i Provincial, Barcelona, Spain.

Abstract

BACKGROUND: Some gray and white matter regions of the brain are sexually dimorphic. The best MRI technique for identifying subtle differences in white matter is diffusion tensor imaging (DTI). The purpose of this paper is to investigate whether white matter patterns in female to male (FtM) transsexuals before commencing cross-sex hormone treatment are more similar to that of their biological sex or to that of their gender identity.
METHOD: DTI was performed in 18 FtM transsexuals and 24 male and 19 female heterosexual controls scanned with a 3 T Trio Tim Magneton. Fractional anisotropy (FA) was performed on white matter fibers of the whole brain, which was spatially analyzed using Tract-Based Spatial Statistics.
RESULTS: In controls, males have significantly higher FA values than females in the medial and posterior parts of the right superior longitudinal fasciculus (SLF), the forceps minor, and the corticospinal tract. Compared to control females, FtM showed higher FA values in posterior part of the right SLF, the forceps minor and corticospinal tract. Compared to control males, FtM showed only lower FA values in the corticospinal tract.
CONCLUSIONS: Our results show that the white matter microstructure pattern in untreated FtM transsexuals is closer to the pattern of subjects who share their gender identity (males) than those who share their biological sex (females). Our results provide evidence for an inherent difference in the brain structure of FtM transsexuals.

Thanks to Laura ;)

Friday, January 21, 2011

Mr. Lucky Duck and Friends








My YouTube Videos

Here's some videos I made a while back:



 
 

Dream Log

 Don't read this is you are squeamish...
Now don't judge me when I describe this...but I had a weird but awesome dream last night.
I was in my graveyard that I visit sometimes in my dreams. It is in the middle of this old neighborhood my Aunt Patty and Uncle Jon used to live in Kansas City. All The gravestones are old and interesting and some have that tiny iron fencing around them and some are crumbling above ground cement enclosures. I have to admit that I love graveyards...I'm not some Emo goth person, but I love looking at the names and dates...I have this affinaty for the past.
Anyway, the next part gets really, really freaky, at least for those who might be reading this...
I see that the ground is caving in around a grave...I look down in it and there is a coffin that reminds me of this jewelery box my grandma gave me; its a sort of 70's-ish, eggshell white, gold trimmed box, something you'd find in an antique  store around where I live. The coffin is open and the half-decomposed corpse of an old woman is sticking out...its not a gross kind of decomposition (if that kind even exists)...but you could tell she was buried for a while. Her face looked like it was hallow or warped...no features. For some reason I got her and the coffin up out of the ground and brought her to the person who runs the graveyard so they could re-bury her...
I know it is extremely weird, but I always have dreams about seeing dead bodies...and they are never gross or bloody, but not quite mummified and not freshly dead. Or, even being in a graveyard and seeing crumbling graves and I always really want to see inside. Curiosity? I suppose.
My first dream like that I will always remember. I went down into a crypt like the one in Claremore in the Will Rogers museum...and there on a slab was Harpo Marx and there were candles. It was very weird. But I loved the dream and I love all these dreams...the feeling I get from them is so interesting. I know I am sounding soooo weird and crazy right now. I mean, I even love going to Rose Hill cemetary here in Tulsa at Admiral and Yale. I have several relatives buried there and my mom and I would go there every year to decorate their graves. I always loved that.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

some trans links

I ordered jeans from this website. They are very well made and they followed the measurements and directions exactly. You can get any kind you want and they have several choices, even more feminine styles:
http://www.makeyourownjeans.com/

Search on Etsy.com for "custom dress":
http://www.etsy.com/search_results.php?search_query=custom+dress&filter[0]=handmade&filter[1]=clothing&filter[2]=women&page=1

Women's shoes that come in large sizes and widths:
http://www.designershoes.com/

Here is a blog about transgender issues in the workplace:
http://transworkplace.blogspot.com/

Here is one about "coming out" & communication:
http://gendertree.com/Communications.htm

Oklahoma Resources:
http://www.gender.org/resources/state/oklahoma.html

Gender Education & Advocacy downloadable files:
http://www.gender.org/resources/files.html

the Autism Spectrum

I found this website the gives great info on the Autism Spectrum:
http://www.pediatricneurology.com/autism.htm

Here's a little from the site:

The Skills Involved in Communication

In order for us to effectively communicate, we need skill in multiple areas, including (A) verbal and  (B) non-verbal arenas.

(A) Verbal/Spoken Communication Skills (may or may not be affected in ASD)

bulletSemantic language: The ability to use and understand words, phrases and sentences; including abstract concepts and idioms. Aspects of semantic language include:
bulletReceptive verbal language: The ability to understand spoken words and ideas.
bulletCentral Auditory Processing (CAP): A mixed group of abilities needed to process and derive meaning from sounds and words; including the abilities to distinguish between similar sounds, and to pick out the main voice from background. In short,“what we do with what we hear.”
bulletExpressive verbal language: The ability to express our ideas with spoken words.
bulletArticulation: The ability to speak each word clearly.

(B) Non-Verbal/Non-Spoken Communication Skills (Problematic in ASD)

bulletUrge to initiate shared social interaction and two-way communication: Theory of Mind.
The ability to socialize/relate/empathize requires a working “Theory of Mind.” Theory of mind refers to the relatively unique ability of humans to understand: (1)that I have a mind, (2) that you have a mind; and most importantly, (3) that our minds may not know or be feeling the same things.  Without a theory of mind, there is little point in communicating. After all, who would you be communicating to? There is limited ability to truly recognize that there is another human being in the room. It will be difficult to feel the need to communicate with anyone else. It may seem as if there is a plane of glass between the child and others. Eye contact will be poor.
With limited ability to “get inside your mind,” it will be frequently difficult for the child to demonstrate empathy for what you are feeling. For example, a child with theory of mind problems may assume that since he is happy, then you must be happy; or the child may not understand that someone else is deceptive when his own mind always attempts honesty. 
Thus, the ability to recognize that you have a mind, the ability to relate to that mind, and the ability to empathize with that mind are all parts of the same skill. It is felt that theory of mind problems underlie many of the difficulties seen in the Autistic Spectrum Disorders.
Closely related to the “interest” in social communication (that arises from a working theory of mind) are the following skills.  They are required to actually achieve the meaningful interaction.  Certainly, if you don’t have these skills, your ability to appear interested in social interaction may become blunted.
bulletPragmatic language: The practical ability to use language in a social setting, such as knowing what is appropriate to say, where and when to say it; and the give and take nature of conversation. Effective pragmatics requires a working theory of mind:  the ability to figure out what the other person does or does not already know—or might or might not be interested in hearing about. Examples of pragmatic language/theory of mind problems would be:
bulletA new student moves into the school district and enters the classroom for the first time. The teacher asks him where he comes from. The Autistic Spectrum child responds: “From the hallway.”
bulletAs an Asperger’s child walks into the office, the doctor notices that her pink shirt matches the color of her jacket. He jokes, “If you change into a green shirt, does the color of the jacket change, too?” The child responds: “My wardrobe includes a turquoise shirt, not a green one.” This child’s spoken language is precise, but she misses (1) the actual meaning of the question; and more importantly, (2) misses that the whole purpose of this conversation was just a little fun chit-chat to initiate an interaction.
bulletThe skill to know what is—and what is not—important
bulletAbility to see the big picture rather than fixate on details.
bulletAbility to maintain a full range of interests.
bulletSymbolic play skills
bulletGive a child a yellow box on wheels, with thin long black strips on it. The ability to understand that this object actually represents a school bus is a type of communication—just like the ability to recognize that the letters “C-A-T” stand for a furry animal. Both involve the use of symbols rather than the actual object to communicate.
bulletBy 18 months, most toddlers start to use objects as symbols for something else. For example, a cup is for drinking, but it also makes quite a handy telephone. By 3 years of age, most children are quite good at “let’s pretend” activities, such as “You be the cowboy!” The toy school bus is not fascinating because the cold metal box can move, but because little toy figures chat while getting on it as they go to school. Stuffed animals are not just warm rags of cloth to drag around, but living creatures that have feelings and needs.
bulletSo, by 18-36 months of age, typical children make continuous progress in the skill of appreciating the representational meaning of a toy, rather than focusing on its straight forward visual attributes.  Failure to develop representational/symbolic/pretend play is a strong marker of the Autistic Spectrum Disorders. After all, if you cannot understand that a physical toy bus represents a real truck, how could you understand that the even more purely representational sound “bus” represents a real truck.
bulletNon-verbal (non-spoken) transmission of language. The simple sounds are not the only thing my body sends through space when it attempts to communicate with you. It also transmits:
bulletFacial expressions
bulletBody language
bulletTone and prosidy of voice
·        Associated skills sometimes also involved with language problems:
o       Motor (muscle) coordination, including both gross and fine motor.
o       Spatial orientation.
o       Overall cognition.

Secondary Problems Resulting from Failure to Understand

If the child does not understand what is going on around her—especially if pragmatic/socialization cues are difficult—secondary problems usually occur in the Autistic Spectrum Disorders. The child will frequently appear:
·        Anxious, since she doesn’t know where the next blunder will come from.
·        Insistent on sameness and showing ritualistic behavior.  Change means that previously hard-learned strategies will not help in this situation.  These kids are barely hanging on. One new wrinkle can throw them over the edge. For example, Jill may know how to unpack her lunch from her backpack each day; but, what happens if the lunch is missing. Now what do she do?
·        Inattentive, since it’s hard to pay attention to something you don’t understand.
·        Rude-appearing, since she doesn’t understand rules of conversation such as waiting your turn.
·        Interested in objects rather than people. After all, objects are more predictable.
·        “Hanging back” from peers, for all of the above reasons, and from simply not knowing how to make conversation and relate.
·        “Out of it” and “odd” looking.

 

Categories of Communication Disorders

When a child has difficulties in these areas out of proportion to his/her general cognitive abilities, he/she can be considered to have a communication disorder.
Difficulties in the above skills can group together in varying combinations and severities, allowing for the naming of several communication disorder syndromes. As we shall see, these disorders overlap greatly. They may also co-exist as “co-morbid” conditions, may lead to each other, and some may even be duplicates of the same condition but approached by different specialties. Additionally, as children develop, their symptoms and most appropriate diagnostic classification might change. The human brain is not so simple that its disorders fit into neat, static categories. Nonetheless, we still attempt to find certain patterns.  Unless we know about the range of syndromes, we will fail to look for important symptoms that need to be addressed.  These disorders are (over) simplified in Table 1 below.
Disorders of the communication skills are grouped into two major types of “disorders.”
(A) Typical language-based learning disorders are due to problems in the purely spoken/written language communication skills. These include Expressive, Receptive, Processing, and Articulation Language Disorders. Most routine speech and language evaluations examine these areas.  Note that routine psychological testing (such as the WISC- “IQ”) examines areas of cognition (thinking), rather than language per se.
(B) Autistic Spectrum Disorders (ASD) are those that include non-spoken communication problems—in particular, problems with socialization/empathy. In other words, the Autistic Spectrum Disorders all share trouble with theory of mind, socialization, the pragmatics of language, and  representational play.   They may occur with or without additional verbal speech problems.
In turn, the Autistic Spectrum Disorders are written about in two groupings. These are summarized in the two charts below, and then are discussed in more detail.
bullet(1) The Pervasive Developmental Disorders (PDD), defined in DSM-IV by the American Psychiatry Academy. These are a series of five diagnoses--of which autism is the most commonly discussed. “Pervasive” means that the problem cuts across multiple types of communication.  These five disorders are:

Autistic Disorder
Severely disordered verbal and non-verbal language; unusual behaviors.
Asperger’s Syndrome
Relatively good verbal language, with “milder” non-verbal language problems; restricted range of interests and relatedness.
PDD-NOS
Non-verbal language problems not meeting strict criteria for other PDD disorders.
Rett’s Disorder*
Rare neurodegenerative disorder of girls.
Childhood Disintegrative Disorder*
Neurologists are scratching their head on this one, and assume psychiatrists mean neurodegenerative disorders.
*In common practice, the diseases of Rett’s Disorder, and Childhood Disintegrative Disorder are considered medical disorders and are not usually considered part of the “Autistic Spectrum Disorders.”
bullet(2) Other Autistic Spectrum Disorders
Meanwhile, the rest of the world has extended the spectrum beyond those conditions discussed in DSM-IV to include other “Autistic Spectrum Disorders.” These are:
Semantic Pragmatic Communication Disorder
Delay and trouble with the use of language (both semantic and pragmatic), but socialization relatively spared.
Non-Verbal Learning Disabilities
Trouble integrating information in 3 areas: non-verbal difficulties causing the child to miss the major gestalt in language; spatial perception problems; and motoric coordination problems.
High Functioning Autism
For some authors, synonymous with Asperger’s; for others, implies milder autism without retardation.
Hyperlexia
Most notable for incredible rote reading skills starting at an early age.
Some aspects of ADHD
Impulse and control difficulties in ADHD may lead to trouble showing their empathy.

 

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Here's some links

I thought I should post some resources for the S.O.'s of trans people, as well as some for trans people themselves.

PFLAG: Straight Spouse's Closet

Can a Marriage Survive Transition?

http://www.transfamily.org/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qejttIJ_50&feature=player_embedded

http://www.tsroadmap.com/family/

http://www.lauras-playground.com/support_meetings.htm
Laura's Playground is a great site with a lot of resources.

My Husband Betty: Amazon
we own this book. Its a good read.

She's Not the Man I Married: My Life with a Transgender Husband
this one came after My Husband Betty


That's it for now. I will post more soon.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

so nice...

Nice to know that I can count on Kris to take good care of me when I'm sick...and boy have I been sick.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Our Tattoos

Kris and I got tattoos last May. He wanted a girly one and it ended up being a "Mer-Bear" (me), and mine was the Beatles. He didn't want me to get one of him...but I am going to get one that will say "Maybe I'm Amazed at the way I really need you" for (her). ;) I designed these and I am quite pleased with the results. I drew both from scratch and we got them done at Just Another Hole in Broken Arrow by Robbie.




Feeling a little yucky

My depression is flaring up and it always helps to write a little. I guess its b/c my last semester of college is coming up and I have no idea what I'm doing after that (very common, I know). And I have to start acting like an adult again, now that I am going back to school and work...that sucks, LOL.
I really hate being in situations where I an put on the spot and if I don't understand something, people assume that I am dumb. I'm way too sensitive as well.Its like, I'm depressed if I isolate myself, but I am anxious when I am around people.
Oh well, I always have a sense that things are going to be okay. I have to think about the things that are important and not be so cautious.

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